love

sisters!=)

Tears.

Oh my..today i went to the dentist,it was painful.my dad pick me up.my enzytee attack me..my body was shaking.my hands,even the colour of my nails turns to dark purple..haven't been attack like that since my last operation.i feel so weak.arrive home,went to my room,i saw my sister packing her stuffs because my family is going to perak but not me.i have an appointment with the dentist early in the morning.then my mom call me.i show to her the bleeding after i pull a teeth out,then suddenly she ask me what did i shop yesterday.i told her i buy some shirts and a pair of heels.then she ask me did i buy a new jeans so i said yes.and she said the jeans is expensive right?i was speechless.how did she know.then i realise that my sister told her.i was upset with my sister for telling my mom.my mom said,u can shop but please manage yourself.don't waste your money just on a branded jeans.so yeah i was lecture by her.she also said that I'm a mess.i didn't help her with cleaning the house and she said that my room is like a "rumah tumpangan".yeah i know that my room is a mess because i just move out from my apartment and i haven't manage to clean things up yet.i was planning to do it today.but i was hurt by her words.so i went to my room with teary eyes.i went to my sister and said that,"fun yeah to talk to mom like that??"than she said "what?,i did what to you and what did i said to mom until you cry??"i ask her "why do you even have to tell mom about me buying the jeans??now she thinks that I've lied to her.she lectures me and said that I'm a mess,i haven't been nice to you and always fight with you.am i that bad??"i start to cry in the bathroom but my sister was at the door looking at me crying and she starts to cry too.i said to her that i feel betrayed by her and i said that "i never do that to you.i even pick your boyfriend and join us to Sunway Pyramid yesterday.i can just tell mom but did i??no right.i always buy what ever mom never buys you and I'm not saying that i want you to pay me back its just that you are my only sister i have in this world so i want you to feel happy and not experience what i have been experiencing at your age.i didn't get what i want at your age so i want you to have it.you have seen how hard i save my money just to by my needs so i want to spend my money for you to buy your needs.i want you to have the freedom that i didn't get.does that makes me a bad sister to you??or it is not enough for you?"gosh i cry even harder.i was so sad.my sister cry even more harder than me.she feels sorry for me.she said"i didn't mean to tell mom but i was just jealous of you.you always get to buy what you want.you always have a lot of money.its just that the jeans is tooo expensive for you to buy.i don't want you to waste your money.after what you said,its true.you always buy me stuffs that i want and i think you were the one who spend more on me rather than mom.all my shoes are from you.you know i need shoes so you always buy me shoes.even my school beg its you who bought it.yeah,I've realise that i always use your stuffs.you never get mad at me if i want to borrow your stuffs and you were the one that said if i want to borrow or need anything just take yours.you always offer me if i want to buy anything if we go out.now i feel bad.i shouldn't have done that to you.I'm sorry.akak,ayush mintak maaf sgt2.ayush yang xpandai nk hargai ape yg akak dah buat utk ayush.ayush salah.sorry".after my sister said that i couldn't take it i cry even more.for a moment we just cry.it was a very touching moment for us.we never talk from heart to heart.i promise myself to be a better sister to her.i want her to feel that i will always be there for her.i want to change myself for her.i don't mind to spend all my money for her.she's the only sister i have in this world.i love her with all my heart.she also promise to be a nicer little sister to me.she said that she likes to clean my room so that i won't feel stress after studying at college all day.she wants me to be happy.she said that she can only help me with that since she can't do what I've done for her all this while.I'm glad that we had that conversation.i ask her to wash her face because she needs to get ready for going to Perak with my family.i help her to wear her scarf.gosh I'm crying now.its just that i love her so much.I'm happy now.=)

Keep It Low.

I just want to know,is it wrong to be humble and keep things low?no right?i mean it's something natural for some people for not to brag about everything to everyone and just enjoy it.i can't understand some people who like to show off about every single thing she/he have or happen to others.it's not like only them have or experience it,everybody does.not like only them are rich,can buy branded stuffs,go for holidays to foreign countries,have a huge house and all.i mean,even other people who are more than you have been in that spot already.so why need to brag those to people.you just make them laugh and feel pity for you.another thing is copycat.do you have to do it openly,i mean like obviously.i know that you want to wear or have the things that people have but can you do it own your own style and way.for example,you saw someone wearing a new branded bag,new heels,new dress or even new style of makeup,not that you can't have all of those,just don't suddenly wear it the next day,people will now and notice it.wait for a week or two.let that person wear it until she/he change it then u can do it.simple right.or just be yourself,don't ever try to follow others style that will not suits you.being humble is a good attitude right.i love people who like to keep things low and just be humble.what is it about to brag things to people when others are much better than you.just be humble OK.it's not hard to do and if you practice it since you are young eventually it will be with you forever.just keep that attitude and people will love you more.believe me.let me give an example,there is this two girls,girlA and girlB.GirlA like to brag to people about every things and talk bad things about every people that she meets.anything that she does she wants attractions from others.this girl likes to win in every single thing she does or talks.compare to girlB,she likes to make friends with others and respect people.even if she have new things she bought or happen to her she just keep it low and if others praise her about things she have or she do,this girl will just be very humble to others.she knows the limits and just enjoy her life.the result is girlB will be love and cared by others compared to girlA.girlA have been isolated by others and less people hang out with her.see the differences?simple right?=)

Indonesian??

Haha yeah..OK I'll tell the story about me that have to do with this Indonesian thing.My first class with my new subject which is Tourism Destination and Dr. Angel is teaching my class.I thought that he's a Malay but then he's from Philippine.then we were told to introduce ourselves.I volunteer myself and yeah i tell him my name and where i am from.i said that I'm a local and he was surprise.for me yeah nothing special so the following week i have class with him again.he brief to us about our group assignment and we have to pick a country that is shown on the screen and i quickly choose Indonesia.because Indonesia is a country that have a lot of interesting things to be presented and we have to bring that countries food some more.i raise my hand and yell out the country that i want and Dr. Angel said to me that "u cannot choose your own country".i was like what??then i say "no sir,I'm not from Indonesia,I'm local".he say"no,don't lie to me.i know that u are from Indonesia and u are an Indonesian".i talk back to him"sir believe me that I'm a Malaysian.I'm local.I'm not lying".then he said"yeah OK then"(but his face shows that he don't believe me).hahahahahahahahahha.....even my classmates were surprise by what just happened in front of them.my group members was laughing.after his class i went to the toilet and check myself in the mirror to see if i look like an Indonesian.hahahahaha...damn funny lah weh..after lunch,i text my Indonesian friend,Sella and ask her do i look like an Indonesian and not look like Malay or what,"Sella,do i look like an Indonesian and not Malay?"she replied,"hahahaha,why?but yeah u don't look like a Malay".i ask my classmates who are not local and ask them when they first saw me,do i look like local or i don't look like a Malay?and they said that yeah,they first thought that I'm not a local because i don't look like a Malay.they said that my skin is different from local's skins.hahahahahahha...this is my first time.this thing keep bothering my mind and i ask a lot of people about it.hahaha.i told my mother about it and she say,"lah penat2 aku lahirkn ank pompuan aku nih berubah jadi ank indon dah??'.hahahahahahaha..very funny.so now every time any Indonesian passes by me i will say,"hey,orang kampung I tu".hahahaha.overall,this is the story about me as an Indonesian.but do i look like one?very curious.=)

Now i know.

*sigh*yeah..now i know my true feelings..about my crush all this long,it was just a feeling of happiness because i was treated very nicely.not that now I'm not being treated nicely,but i can just tell its just as a comfort friend.that's all.I've been living in a fairy tail all by myself.never mind.at least there are memories about it right.now i am proudly saying that i have no more crush on anyone and happy about it.=)

Thanks ibu and ayah!=)

Yeah i want to thanks my parents a lot.coming back from US and bought me lots of things.satisfied.hahahaha.and i miss them for being there for 2weeks.i don't need to shop for my things anymore,what i need,already been bought by my parents.i feel great!haha..

Boyfriend.

Now I'm looking for one.hahahaha.actually i can survive without one but i just want one.want to have the feeling in love again.want the feeling of having butterflies in my stomach.the feeling being love by the one that i love.get a sweet text from him,a call from him.heee.must be happy and wonderful.i want someone with a mature behavior and thinking who can guide me in anything.simple but yet attractive to me.i like a guy with cute curly hair or a straight hair with a cute style.ghee,i found one already but yeah he's too perfect for me.my mom told her friends that I'm still searching for a boyfriend.her friends was like,why no one want me,I'm in term3 already.they are worried about me for not having a boyfriend.my mom's rule is i must get married by 21.and they are afraid because I'm 18 already but still no boyfriend.I'm the one who need to get married by 21 but they're the one who are worried about me.they said that i just need to find a boyfriend and the rest will be taken care by them.hahaha.they are so cute.they treat me as I'm their daughter.and yeah they said it themselves,I'm their precious daughter.awww.touched by that.they always say that if u like that guy just go and confess to that guy.i was like what?just like that?I'm not that type of girls la aunties.i like to be humble and keep low.comfortable like that.i don't want guys to see me as "gedik".i want them to see me as a very cheerful and sweet girl.i tend to be "manja" with them.my friends said that every time i talk with guys i tend to talk in a sweet voice and "manja".Even i didn't notice about that.it just happen.naturally.anyways,i hope to find one that can make me act the way i am,i can feel comfortable and safe with him.=)

Happy =)

Yeah,happy because I have a great day with my friends.heee..indeed it is..we all laugh like hell..LIKE HELL..through out this one week of holidays,this is the only day that i go out with my friends and have fun..i plan many things but didn't get the chance to do all of it..what to do..only got one week of term break..what to expect right..hope for a longer break..

hey.

Term Break,

yeah baby!!!I have finish my finals already and know I'm having my term break..but sadly its only one week..after that I'm gonna start term3..haha..i know,like what??that fast?but i like term3's timetable..less class and got one day no class..i hope that this term i can past and don't have to repeat..afraid if my results are not good, it will be very stress because i study like hell..heee..anyways,for this break i just hope that i can get some rest and have a vacation with my friends..because i know once I'm home,i have work to do..as usual,driver for my brother and sister..hmm..

Tia baby,

hey dear,i miss u so much doh..wanna hang out with u..siyes..like we use to..no need to go out or what for me if we sit together and share stories is enough..talk about your problem,mine,laugh out loud,share what's new..i have lots of thing to share and i know u have too right?set the date and day then we meet k dear..=)

Crush!

hahhahahahahahaha....(blushing)yeah..i'm having it right now..but maybe just for a while..don't know lah..i don't want to be too happy because I'm afraid if my heart hurts..don't have the guts lah weh..just go with the flow..right people..=)

silly me =)

Before Hari Raya.

well currently i'm in my nenek's house lepaking with my cousins.there's nothing to do..a bit bored but thanks to my ipod for cheering me up.=) hmm..i'm a bit sad because this raya i can't celebrate it with my second brother..he cannot come home for this raya.the worst part is that he have class at the first day of raya.haih.he complained to me how he feel and i feel sorry for him.he said that he's homesick.even for the following years he can't come back home too because he have classes.damn la those white people.ok continue,i don't know why this raya i don't feel like before.like empty.hahaha.strange huh?well i just hope that i can enjoy it with my cousins and have a great raya.i also wish to others happy hari raya and sorry for all my mistakes.

to Kari's:selamat hari raya weh!!miss u guys a lot!!siyes doh.bile nk jmpe blik?=(

Eira & Hanis:babes.selamat hari raya!!lets meet and celebrate it together yeah.=)

Tia:yang,selamat hari raya!!miss u lots lah.xtipu.nnti raya dtg rumah ye.=)

Taylorian:happy hari raya guys!!open house cepat!!=p

Trip with my classmates!=)

yeah,last week i had a trip with my classmates to genting..actually its a assignment for my transportation operation subject..we need to go somewhere that uses a lot of transportation and genting was the most suitable one..enjoy the pictures..=)

mute.

I was on my way back home with my brother and his girlfriend..it was raining..my brother want to drive fast so that we all can open our fast in time with our family but it's dangerous..the roads were watery..i can't remember exactly where but the road is covered with water..suddenly my brother loose control and the car was about to spin..i was damn scared..my brother's girlfriend already start to scream..my brother tried his best to control the car and thank to god he manage to control it..huh...it's like a short nightmare tho!my body hurts because of the incident..after that i can't even talk..still in a shock..even after my brother sent his girlfriend home and we arrive safely,i was still in a mute..i'm just glad that nothing happened..hmmm...thank you God..really..i am..

3.13a.m

yeah..it's 3.13 a.m but I'm still awake..why?because I'm finishing my works..now I'm doing geography...its about the world..I'm doing the world map now..tired...got six more to do..but for now i just need to finish one..it's almost done..thanks god!after this i need to do a report for my Professional Activities..then read Transportation Operation's note for tomorrow's assessment..it will take all night..never mind..i just hope i can finish it..well,need to continue finishing my works..blog next time..=)

Practicing.

Yeah..me and zaim are webcaming just now and we were bored..there's nothing to do so we decide to practice our Korean writing..we attend a Korean class at Taylor's and they gave us some exercises to do as our homework..so we did it together..funny..we race who did it faster..haha..then i stop because i cannot do it anymore..my hand hurts..i want to finish it quickly so that i can focus on my assignments..i got 1 assessment,1 report,7 map to complete,1 research about natural strange phenomena to pass up on next Thursday..insane right?haha..what to do..=)

What Can I Do.

I can't do anything..the feeling is weird..like..in love..but don't get me wrong..not in love with someone,I'm in love with this song..the meaning of the song is really touching..but yet i love to hear it..it over and over again..usually i don't hear to sad love song but this time,i can..thanks to this song..totally in love!i wish i have a nice voice like her..unique,husky and wonderful..btw,the song is compose by her,the lyrics..she did it by her self..hope she can continue the great work..=)

Single.

hmm yeah..the title explain everything already..I've been single for 2months now..my relationship before with my ex is like 4years and 3months..he keep calling me everyday and text me always..its annoying..i just ignore it and make myself busy with my college life..i also mix with more boys at my college..and they treat me nicely..they care about me..for me,that's enough..i don't need the old memories..i need new ones..i feel more comfortable and confident..I've become more mature..and i like it..the important thing is that I'm happy and can study happily..=)

Pasta! =)

Today I'm fasting..hee...i want to thanks to Hanis Hayati a.k.a my syg a.k.a my room mate because she make pasta for me to break my fast today...it was delicious...kamsahamnida..saranghae yo!!actually i love it when she starts to cook...the talent that she has is like..i can't describe it..it's daebakk!!haha..=p

miss her a lot!!

Tia,i rindu u sgt2 kot..lme sgt xjmpe ngan u..u cmne?ok?everyday sbelum tdo i msti tgk gmba u..cm lain je ble xde u..i xtpu tia..gosh..sometimes i jeles je bile u ngan safar..tp i xkesah..jnji u bhgia..i slalu teringt mse skolah dlu..ade je bnde nk kongsi..gossip..have fun..gelak sama2..lepak rumah u..hmm..rindu nye lah oi..kdg2 bile i down,i perlukn u sgt2 oh tia..sgt..(stop crying la nadh!!)..=(..dah la xnk tulis dah..bia i simpan jela..tp i nk u tau yg i rndu sgt ngan u..take care eh dear..Double xo for u!=*


p/s:saranghae yo!!=)

college life part 1

I've been a college student for 3weeks now..didn't get the time to post it due to not having broadband,busy and tired..so far being a college student is fun and interesting..like many things happened that i want to talk about but I'll just talk a few that i feel like talk right now..well,my classes is OK and not too pack compared to other courses..I'm free on Friday..but on Tuesday,I'm a bit pack..starts at 8 and ends at 6pm..tired huh?well that's how college life are..I'm getting used to it now..i have new friends..from other countries too..not to forget from KOREA!hahaha..she's cute..we've make a deal..i teach her Malay,she will teach me Korean language..cool enough huh?other than Korea,there is this one girl from Kazakhstan and three from Maldives,two from china..my class is fun..everyone mingle with each other..they don't forms group like in high school..we have our lunch together..we even had a trip together..we become close easily..it's a good thing tho..*shit,lost my idea what to write..*hmm..i'll continue blogging next time..haha..babo!*=)*

new phase in my life.

Okay,i just want to tell people that I'm going to have a new phase in my life starting tomorrow night..in my last post I've been talking about college and apartment..so I'm going to continue talking about it..tomorrow night me and Hanis will move to a new apartment that we ranted together,actually,we only rent one room..its fine enough since the room have 2 single beds, 2 study tables and 2 wardrobes for only RM 550,so we spilt it and each have to pay for only RM 275..include the electric and water bills..the other room mates are Chinese..on Wednesday morning we're gonna have our orientation..from morning until 5pm..after that,our lives as a college students will start..haha..nervous OK..so,less online-ing,ym-ing,face book-ing,YouTube-ing and also blogging..wah..i really hope that tomorrow evening i can watch golden star bell challenge and invincible youth..i need to watch it!i need to control myself..hahaha...btw,i have some things to say to my friends..

Tia,

i'm gonna miss u so so sooo much la dear..even sekarang pun dah rindu..cmne?next time,make sure kita dpt lepak tau..mcm2 nk cite nnti..even i dah msok college pun,u still can call me,text me..i xnk u pikir yg nnti u beban kn i plak..no lah syg..never..i'm happy for being there for u..always..if possible,i want to be your number 1 okay?heee..btw,i bwk gmba u utk i tgk selalu..wah..perlu ke?hahaha..suke hati i lah kn?tia,krim slm kt mami,qila,safar..alaaaa...nnti rindu mereka..nnti dah xdpt jmpe mami selalu..xdpt nk have fun ngan qila..i mean dia punye gila2 tu kn..and safar,always been nice to me..u take care tau..xoxo!

Eira,

syg,even u kt plkn,tetap ada utk u..hey,rindu lah awek!mcm mane ek u kt sane?mkn minum u?haih..cmne ngan laki sabah tu?heeee...lain je rase bile xdpt nk contact u mcm selalu..cpt2 lah keluar dri situ..msok kolej cpat2..u pun dah x sabar kn?nk msok mane nnti?alah..xdpt nk tnye semua2 ni kt u..xpelah,free text i k?mcm org giler je tau..hahahah...ilysdfm!imy!muah!

Hanis,

babe,nk ckp ape kt u?hahaha..kelakar je,padahal tiap2 hari jumpe..kelaur je selalu kn?have fun lah ngan u..nnti kt taylor msti best kn?hope for the best lah..babe,cmne ngan tv?korea?no more..you tube jelah jwb nye kn?hahaha...ily!imy!muah...

others,

wish me all the best tau..kepada kari2,rindu nye ngan korang..bile nk buat event lg?doakan aku tau..hope u guys the best in you guys nye kolej life jgak..=)

p/s:siap print lg gmbar mereka!=p

Reasons.

Sometimes we don't get what we want..yeah,we can't have it all..we can't blame it,just accept it and think possitive..maybe i can get what i want later..or just maybe there's a reason behind it..who knows right?i keep reminding myself to always think possitve..

Ideas.

hey,its been a while since I'm blogging..when i want to blog the ideas turns into dust..haha..well,maybe tonight I'll get the ideas back..hmm..okay,i want to share these with u guys..

• firstly,on the 21th of April I'm going to start an orientation at Taylor's college..that will be the important day because at that day I'll take my photo for my student card,I'll get my class schedule,I'll going to get to know people,things like that..and happily I'm having my best friend with me,Hanis Hayati!!yeah!so I'm not that nervous since i have her even tho we're not taking the same courses..but i really hope that Azeera will come to Taylor's too..she really want to study there with us..cross my finger..

• secondly,finally I've found an apartment to rent with hanis..but it's still not confirmed yet,still in progress..but i really hope that we can rent that apartment..well at the early of this night my mom and i searched in the Internet for a available apartment for me and hanis to rent and thank to god we got the opportunity..so i quickly write down the information then i call the owner of the apartment to ask whether if the room is still available..and after the conversation and discussion the owner ask us to come and have a look this weekend..me and hanis will take the master bedroom and pay it 50-50..it's really cheap if you compared it to the others..and the best part is that it's only 10minutes walking to our college..no need to take a cab or a bus..luckily..the owner just post about the rent yesterday..bak kata ibu,"rezeki ni"..haha..it is totally fully furnished and there will be a swimming pool!i can exercise with hanis later..haha..i'm not being berangan ke apa but i really2 hope i can rent that apartment..I'll pray for it..please please please...really looking forward to it..

• thirdly,hmm..it's a bit sad for me..maybe there's no rezeki kn but there will be a next time for me..hmm..tia,dia xjd dtg lah.he's not sure about the job and so am i..i feel that there's something wrong and i doubt about it so i tell him and yeah,he's not coming..even his sister told him that there's something fishy about the job..maybe he will get a job there in JB..who knows there's a better opportunity for him..i wish he can come here but it's okay even tho it hurts me really badly..i want to tell you A.S.A.P but i don't want to disturb you..i know that you're busy..haha..so not me can tia?I'll tell you later..no worries..=)

• last but not least,it's fucking boring at home!!thanks to youtube and KBS for entertaining me all the time..never let me down..always being so understanding..kn hanis?hahaha..

woh..my hands really can move fast when there's ideas in my mind..hahaha..lets just stop right here..tired..want to continue watching the videos I'm uploading..will continue blogging later..=)

feelings.

u know what,i think I'm being fool around by u..why?i can't write about it in public..but i just don't like the way u treat me..respect me as a human..i have a feeling..u should know that..what ever..

Change my mind.

I've change my mind..I'm not going to msu but I'm going to Taylor's college!!happy me!!I've already registered today with my parents..so..no more msu thingy..but I'm worried..haih..malas nk cite..hahahaha...the important thing is I'm going to study in Taylor's and will start at 21 of April..thanks to them who advised me and help me..thanks a lot..will continoue about this college thingy later..i hope so..


p/s:woh,aku kecik hati doh.asl ek?

none.

hey,i miss u babe!where have u been?busy lately?okay..i got it..it's OK..never mind..i can manage myself..



p/s:azeera hashim,i already miss u lah!

counting days.

yeah..I'm counting my days..30 march is just around the corner..like freaking near OK..I'm totally not ready for a new environment yet..like have to stay in a hostel,go to classes,have lecturers instead of teachers,new friends..gosh..i'm scared..i haven't even packed my things yet..don't know where to start..i have to buy lots and lots of things..such as clothes,begs,shoes,etc..how can i survive in a new surroundings without any people that i know?i need to blend with them as fast as i could..i know i can do it..need to have the confident..yeah..thats the spirit!I'm going to be fine..i hope so..hahaha..just pray for me ok?i'm going to miss my friends..my sayangs,Azeera and Hanis..my lovely darling,Tia,my family,cousins and of course my Kari2..hey ckp cm nk g tmpt yg jauh2 je..hahahah...i've list the things i have to buy and pack..so tomorrow me and Hanis will go to mines and shop all the things i need..

Unexpected!

Woh!seriously!I just can't believe it lah!hee..let me start my story since I can't wait to tell everyone.okay.today when i woke up early,i do the chores as usual.that's my routine.at 12 o'clock my phone house rang.my brother pick it up.then he said "kak,ada org nk ckp ngan akk"i though it was from this kakak named kak Hazy which is from UITM Melaka.she ask me if i can go to this one ceramah thingy.but then it was someone else.it was a man.huh?the conversation starts like this..


MR.AMIN:hello,ini Nurul Nadhrah ke?
Me:hello,ah ye.ini Nuru Nadhrah..
MR.AMIN:Nurul ada membuat permohonan ke MSU ke?
Me:oh ye ada.kenapa?
MR.AMIN:sukacita dimaklumkan bahawa cik Nurul telah diterima ke MSU ye.
Me:(heh?is this for real??)HAH!betul ke??
MR.AMIN:ye,adik ada membuat permohonan melalui online kan?
Me:(smiling)ada2..
MR.AMIN:okay,tp course yg adik amik kne adik btol2 minat tau..so,adik akn amik course hospitality and tourism.boleh?
Me:ha?tp saya nk amik tesol.tu first choice saya.
MR.AMIN:tp credit adik xcukup nk amik tesol.so mcm mane?
Me:la yeke.hmm..xpelah cmtu.saya boleh amik hospitality and tourism tu.
MR.AMN:betol ni?
Me:betol2.
MR.AMIN:so kalau mcm tu,alamat adik ni yg adik isi tu betul kn?
Me:ouh betol2.kenapa?
MR.AMIN:takut salah alamat je sbb nnti nk hantar surat kat rumah.kang xdpt nk datang utk pendaftaran.rugi je nnti.
Me:bile ek pendaftaran nye?
MR.AMIN:pendaftaran kita pada 30 march ini.
Me:(WHAT??CEPAT GILER DOWH!!)30 march?
MR.AMIN:aah ye.so nnti kalau adik ada sebarang pertanyaan boleh lah hubungi abg kat number ni ye.**********..
Me:ouh baiklah.
MR.AMIN:okay,tahniah ye adik..assalamualaikum.
Me:terima kasih eh.wsslm.


after the conversation with that guy i jump happily.i was happy!i almost cry.my brothers ask me."npe kak?sape yg kol td?"and i said "org MSU yg kol ,akk diterima!"they were shocked and they jump along with me.hahaha.suddenly i remember my mother so i call her.i told her the news but she wasn't happy as i am because she want me to do tesol.my mood went down.i'm not happy anymore.that afternoon my mother call me and her voice was in a good mood.she ask me did i open MSU's website and search for the subject in hospitality and tourism but i said "not yet.why?"sha said "the subject are fun.it's good.it's interesting".she said she want to take that course too.hahaaha.she explain to me each subjects and it is interesting.so i ask her "can i take that course and go to MSU?"she said "yeah i think u can".woh.i love u lah mom!then she said this friday we'll go to MSU.hee..can't wait..i hope i can further my study there..and i hope i can perform well..=)

Dupdapdupadap.

woh..terasa debaran menanti hari esok..aduhai..cuak nye..byg kn la smpi xlalu mkn.xleh tdo dan yg xthn nye smpi c****2 dah..hahaha..klaka je..ibu n ayh rilex je..xcuak2 pun mcm dri i ni..ibu n ayh redha je bpe i dpt..sbb diaorg tahu i dah usaha..woh..i je yg lbeh2..xtau la boleh dpt bpe esk..berkobar2 je nk g amek result..haih..redha jela..yeah..

Us.

Babe,i miss u.I'm sorry if I've done something that hurt u.



p/s:i love u.

love

I miss this..

Please stop!

please..stop crying nurul nadhrah..what's wrong??god please help me..i really need someone to help me..i can't take it anymore..i just simply can't..huh.

C.H.

sejuk.

ayush.ali.nadh.

This is a picture of us at Cameron Highland..three siblings..we love to take pictures together..hee..there's not much picture..sad but what to do..just want to say that Cameron Highland is a very nice place to go..love strawberry dip with chocolate very much..awww..=)..love anything with strawberry..but I hate the road..ting tong..haha..and I meet my sayang..Fatihah Azman..we didn't even planned to go there together..right dear?hee..like we were at bangi..my mother was really happy when I said that Tia is at Cameron too..she ask me where is she?like almost every minute about her..see Tia my mother likes you..hee..my father bought a lot..i mean freaking lot of teas..i love it..my mother and grandma are crazy with the flowers..they even ask the gardener at my hotel if we can have some flowers..hahaha..they love flowers..there a lots of strawberries in my refrigerator and now I'm eating them..wah..love it!=)

Ouch.

Do you have to say that to me?you don't even think what I feel don't you?please,I love you but you don't trust me?what does that suppose to mean?after all we've been through?there are lots of things about growing up that are hard to be honest about ,even with your best friends.how can you be best friends with someone who keeps secrets from you?deal with that will you?*sigh*

I've got it!

Yeay!I finally got my licence today!I've got my P!oh my god.I'm showing it off.hahaha.proud of myself.but since the accident at Bagan Lalang,I'm afraid to drive the car when there is a lot of car on the road.haih.i've got to be brave or not until when I'm gonna be afraid of driving?OK moving on to the next story.last Sunday my Sim card have been inactivate.I was like WTF?!like what's happening?I didn't even do anything.I've got a message from Maxis that my number have been switched from maxis to Celcom.when did i do that?then I call Maxis centre to ask about it and the operator told me that my number have been inactivate this morning.he told me to come to Maxis centre to renew my number.a waste of time right?fuck u la Maxis.u don't have the right to do that to anyone.but thanks to my dad for going to Maxis centre to renew my number.now I just have to wait it to active again.I've got what I want from last week.I'm so glad.=)

No Point At All.

Right now I'm having a really hard time with myself.try not to think about it but I just can't.in front of people I pretend to be happy and strong like there are nothing wrong with me but the truth is that I'm sinking down and down deep in the ocean.I try to swim back up but it really take some time.when I want to cry so badly,I just hold it and it made my heart hurt a lot.I really want to tell the world how I feel but the world seems to ignore it.sometimes I wonder,am I that useless?am I really that bad?then I always think on the positive side,maybe I have to be nicer to people.try not to hurt them.make them feel happy.feel like they are really precious.but still,there is no point at all.I'm trying my best to comfort and please people but then do they care about me?do they even remember me?I just hope that they appreciate what I have done to them.I really do.I just missed being loved by many people.

p/s:I really love people who love me with all their heart.=)

Some space for me.

I really need some space..i really do..i hope u will understand..i don't want things getting worse between us..i need to think..I'm sorry..now i just need every one's support..Tia,don't worry I wont do anything stupid..thank u so much for being there for me..and yes,I love u too..

Thanks guys

Arini ada kelas..lepas kelas tu pening kepala nk balik mcm mane...haih...dah jnji ngan sdareku Haziq nk lepak same2 tp dia xtaw jln pulak..ayah meeting,abg pulak tengah tido...tetibe teringat Tia..msj Tia and dia tersgtlah baik hati sanggup ambik walaupun dia ngah kerja...sori eh Tia menyusahkn korang pulak kne ambik aku jauh2...lega sikit hati...eh lupe...thanks to Arif Azmi n Safar...i had fun today...


p/s:tia...heee....u know right?

Naik Lemak!

weh,aku xkisah la kalau korang nk _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _...tp tolonglah sedar sikit diri tu eh..korang sekadar _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _..reti2 la ringan kan tulang tu buat keje2 kat rumah ni..xkan la semua aku yg kena buat..letih la..korang boleh sedap dok tido,makan habes duit mak bapak aku,xkan la korang xleh nk balas sikit jasa mak bapak aku?xreti2?pikir la lsikit..penat taw x..mak bapak aku penat2 kerja cari duit utk ank dia,utk korang lagi..banyak songeh pulak..nk makan mcm2...nk keluar lg..sape yg kena hantar korang?abg aku jgak taw..ingt abg aku tu DREBAR korang ke ape??cerewet giler..abg aku dah beli lauk utk korang mkn tengahari,boleh kau ckp xnk??kau ni BODOH KE BAHLUL??kira baik taw abg aku blikan korang lauk..kalau xbeli,korang nak mkn ape?tp satu je bnda yg korang rajin buat kt rumah ni...habiskan stok makanan!korang taw x stok makanan tu utk kitaorg..sepatutnye stok makanan tu boleh tahan dalam 2mggu xpun 3 mggu tp korang pecah rekod la..dlm 1mggu je?!makanan yg orang dah beli xnk makan tp nk goreng bnde2 yg frozen dlm peti sejuk tu...amboi..banyak cantik!aku bengang taw x...aku ni dah jadi mcm bibik je utk korang..aku buat sume keje..xkn la xleh nk tlg sikit pun..buat mcm rumah sndri plak..menternak lemak je tau..bia..bagus..gemuk nnti sndri tanggung..aku pun senang hati..hahaha...

p/s:setiap manusia pun ada had limit nye okay?

Wahai Perempuan

Anda pernah xjumpa seorang perempuan yg luar nmpk suci lg murni tp dlm,hati nya busuk mcm bangkai??baiklah..biar saya ceritakan..suatu ketika dahulu saya berkenalan dengan beliau ini,dia begitu baik melayan saya..pada awalnye lah..saya begitu menghormati beliau..beliau baik hati,sopan santun,pandai,dan boleh dikatakan cantik..namun lama kelamaan sikap sebenar beliau terserlah sedikit demi sedikit..perkara ini normal kerana apabila kite rapat dengan seseorang,kita akan hilang segala segan silu..pada tahun berikut nya,beliau mula tidak melayan saya..saya mencurigai sikapnya..beliau tidak lagi seperti dahulu..mengapa ye?macam-macam perkara yang bermain difikiran..apa salah saya?mungkin beliau berkecil hati?akhirnya saya mendapat jawapan yang telah lama saya nantikan..beliau tidak menyukai saya..dihadapan saya,beliau begitu hiprokrik sekali..tetapi dibelakang saya,beliau mengata saya dihadapan orang..malah beliau mentertawakan saya..buruk kah saya?hina ke saya?saya juga mendapat tahu bahawa beliau suka memain-mainkan perasaan orang lain..mengapa perlu begitu?beliau juga suka memberi alasan yang akhirnya memakan diri sendiri..susah ke jujur?jikalau boleh,dia hanya mengeluarkan duit ketika betol-betol memerlukannya..salahkah menghulur kepada mereka yang telah membantu?janganlah terlalu berkira..kelak,rezeki susah untuk bertambah..beliau juga tidak perlu bersusah-payah demi mendapat sesuatu kerana bagi beliau,semua perkara sudah ada dihadapan mata beliau..beliau hanya perlu memilih yang mana akan menjadi mangsanya sahaja..apakah semua ini?tidakkah perkara ini perlu dihentikan?masyaallah..inilah kisah seorang perempuan yang suci lagi murni tetapi hatinya busuk seperti bangkai..

p/s:saya berharap agar kelakuan seperti ini tidak lagi berulang..berubah la..

mwahaha!

hahaha...scary x?mcm2 abg aku ni..skejap je tggl kn fon dlm kete,taw2 dia amik gmba ni n wat wallpaper..mengong je..hehehe...

trust

now i know and beleive in it..

Happy Birthday Fatihah Azman!!

Yes i do n i will forever do!just now u had turn to 18 dear!Happy Birthday!no words that can describe how thankfull i am to know u n love u..i just can't..huh..malu la tia...haha..rindu nk lepak2,gossip2..giler2 ngan kau..anda taw x ape itu rindu?sbb sye rindu awk ni..ngeee...well i hope we can be friends forever..no matter what u have done to me,i still love u..(thn nangis nih)u know how i am..xleh nk tulis pape lg dah..nnti melalak pulak kang..nnti anda yg kne bertangggungjawab...;)

p/s:xoxo!

typical

Happy new year!haha lmbt je aku ni.yela bru blik dri bercuti kn..hee..so aku g pangkor ngan family n sdare2 yg hanya 2org je,syaza n angah.tp mmg best.meh la nk cite dri awl la eh..k sebelom naik feri,kitaorg singgah g rumah opah utk mkn.yeah utk mkn je taw.terok x kami ni?haha..opah mrh sbb singgah skejap je..then tok ngah anta kitaorg kt tmpt feri tu,da salam n ckp bye2 kitaorg pun g la naik feri.eh terlupe nk bgtau yg ni sebenarnye family day utk fakulti engineering UKM.so ada la a few family yg dpt hadir,sume aku knl tp buat2 xknl je..haha..smpi je sne naik van pulak nk g hotel tu.tp yg kelakar nye,bile van tu smpi kt dpn hotel tu,ada 4org sambut kitaorg smbil maen gitar n nyanyi lg aw..hahaha..sumpah kelakar.da la versi lagu jln2 cari makan tu..lawak je..then ayh g amik kunci bilik..dpt dua banglo chalet..yeah!xyah nk kongsi2 blik..heaven je..so aku,ayush,syaza n angah satu banglo.dah plan awl2 lg nk amik gmba byk2..hee..da pilih blik msg2,lepak2,ayh kol sbb nk g mkn,sume teruje je bile ckp psl nk mkn.mknn kt hotel tu ok la.then bla2......esk pg2 dah ada aktiviti senaman,then g snorkeling!xsba ouh..naek bot g pulau kecik tu n rmi gler org..ble dah dpt snorkeling,lpas ni mmg xnk dah.taubat ok..nk taw npe?sbb nye,batu2 kt dlm air tu bpk la tajam2..tertoreh2 dah kaki n tgn..abes luke..xleh nk jln pun.but still best..seronok je tgk org jatuh n menjerit skt..hee..then blik mkn,keluar lg,shopping pulak.bli mcm2..esk tu blik dah..haha..pom je cite padahal xde bnde pun..sje nk kongsi cerita..tp sekurang2 nye gembira kn dri dok kt rumah je..


p/s:bile nk pki _ _ _ _ _ _ ni??xsabar dah!