No Point At All.

Right now I'm having a really hard time with myself.try not to think about it but I just can't.in front of people I pretend to be happy and strong like there are nothing wrong with me but the truth is that I'm sinking down and down deep in the ocean.I try to swim back up but it really take some time.when I want to cry so badly,I just hold it and it made my heart hurt a lot.I really want to tell the world how I feel but the world seems to ignore it.sometimes I wonder,am I that useless?am I really that bad?then I always think on the positive side,maybe I have to be nicer to people.try not to hurt them.make them feel happy.feel like they are really precious.but still,there is no point at all.I'm trying my best to comfort and please people but then do they care about me?do they even remember me?I just hope that they appreciate what I have done to them.I really do.I just missed being loved by many people.

p/s:I really love people who love me with all their heart.=)