totally dissapointed!!

hmmm.....what are best friends for???if they always disappoint u all the time..never make u win in anything...i have this two people that i call best friends..i thought when i have them i don't have to be worry or mad or disappointed at all but it's so totally wrong!!i hate this feeling..i do love them but i felt like i'm not important at all..like i'm an outsider..(i'm crying by the way)..never feel this way..i need to share my feelings with them but they're not here 4 me..why??!!those two people always have time 4 each other but not 4 me..suddenly they're busy doing fucking stuff!!like i don't know that they don't need me anymore..always with their bullshits excuses..daaa..i'm not stupid ok!!i have feelings too..they can do what ever they want but i can't..so not fair..what ever they do,it's always right and when i do it,i'm been scold..i can't take it anymore..i need some air ok..please understand me..i never scold them but i give them more supports..i'm the matured one over here..daaa...the other girl is so not matured..(gedik!!)does she think that it's cute to have that kind of attitude??*sigh*...like we have very different world..not like old times anymore..no more hang outs,sleep overs,gossipping,laughing,shopping....miss the happy times..but know it's gone..i mean..ZERO..huh...maybe u guys will think that i'm to emotional but u guys don't feel what i'm feeling right..its ok..my emotional is not too stabil...*sigh*..=(